+ Happy Days +

I have two new things that come into my life....

a Sony Ericson Xperia Play & a pup - Ah Po...

Knowing that i rarely update my blog anymore

reason being that i prefer to hide everything that i have...

its been weeks that i live in a do-not-wanna-tell-state

stupid things happened that i'll never forget..

and it is a choice that i have to make in within few hours

If i were to go with Choice A, i'll ended up affecting everyone around me.

If i were to go for Choice B, i'll be able to save everyone's feeling

but the worst thing is that i have to bare it all on my own...

i went for Choice B - which then made everything come tumbling down on me..

I've realised that 'feelings' are the worst thing ever that

is drowning me day by day. Lost things can be replaced but if its a lost 'feeling',

nothing can ever replace it.

Knowing that i have something that i really wanted so badly

but i just let it go without any second thoughts.

After knowing that it was gone, i felt 'empty'.

and also knowing that i can still have it back,

however the feeling of losing it has been so great that sometimes

i wanna run away from everything to give myself some breathing space.

It has been a suffocating week, day by day are passing by

and i'm just living on, without anything to look forward

thats because i've got that 'lost' feeling which haunts me.

And knowing plus managed to prove that reality are harsh...

Reality don't really bring in hapiness...

Happiness is just a dream to me...

I've been living in reality for years... and lately, i've seen more of REALITY

situation which makes me even more reality driven...

sometimes how i wish i could live in a dream....

days seemed pretty dull for me because i have absolutely 'nothing' to look forward to...

life is pretty meaningless to me now... Alcohol is no longer a must-have as compare to

last time... clubs & bars are no longer my interest.....

movies and shopping is not in my priority....

basically, nothing seems interesting to me...

i'm in a state of where i'm just passing my time now...

if you were to ask me what excites me, i'll perhaps tell you 'nothing'......