- Chermaine Evo Chervo -

2011-10-31T00:25:00.002+08:00

Its been a hell of a 3rd night for me..
wish i won't be going through all this ever...
why choose such a timing to do things...
i am always wondering, why everything has to be done at night,
especially after 12am..
is 8-9pm to early to get things done ?
What can i say about this ? if i raise a question, there will be excuse..
if i keep it to myself, its killing me inside...
why do i keep letting it hurts me..
or, is my expectations too high for you to take..
why am i always being put into such situation..
some say i have no luck in getting what i really want..
maybe it is true..
i keep giving in, what i dislike to do most was already been sacrificed
just to suit you...
what i have done, i've given my best....
but you keep taking it for granted..
as if i am and will always be there for you...
throught out the past few days, intitally i thought i could be happy that i finally get to have sometime alone with you
but things seems to turn out the other way round..
it went from good to werst
facing you now is like facing an enemy...
i can't wait to get rid of you being by my side..
small things became a big issue, thats because you made it worst last time...

2011-10-30T00:30:00.002+08:00

Hi, its me again. I am here to rant about my days gone bad...

To start with, my dog died...

practically in an unfortunate way which made me very very upset..

Then i started to blame myself for what has happened..

knowing me, i will keep beating myself up..thinking that everything

that happened was always my fault.

Until today, i've been trying to find a reason why it died

but it keeps coming back to me that it died because of me...

and knowing also that this is life, certain being will leave us behind

cause nothing is immortal...

everything is mortal... everything come and go...

even though i keep telling myself to be strong and i should look forward instead of

keeping dawning on the past..

i am a Past person perhaps... unfortunately, i dawn on the past and pick up every

signal of the past to conclude the future.

Sometime people said, what happened in the past does not determine the future..

but what about history ? Without history, there won't be today and future is pre-dertermine

by referring to the past..

Hence, thats the reason why i take the PAST so seriously..

I am here to rant about my disappointments and regrets..

i am not the kind of person that says I REGRET...

I, in fact, rarely have regrets over what i have done so far...

if i were being asked whether i have any regrets, i shall confidently answer NO.

Nonetheless, over the past few months, i've beginning to feel a sense of regret.

A regret that i felt so deeply hurt and unable to pour out to anyone

keeping it inside me and trying my best to tolerate it..

I would say that the regret was

I did not take my dad's advise...

knowing that the person i hated the most but he mean good to me,

but i rejected his advise and went on my own way...

that is how i ended up here today..

once in a bluemoon, when i flash back over what my dad had said to me...

it dawn to me that everything he said was partially very very true..

and it is killing me day by day

because of the truth that it is happening to me now,

i felt so disappoint over my wrong doing...

probably i was young and naive and lost

to figure things out... i followed my emotions more than

i follow good advise...

knowing that things isn't going to work out anymore

but i am still hanging onto it...

i feel like it is back to square one....

i felt like the deeper i step into the situation,

the more messed up things turned out to be...

............

it is so difficult to pour everything here

atleast i am able to get my feelings out virtually

i am feeling much better

hoping and wish for the best tomorrow...

2011-10-03T12:24:00.004+08:00

Galactic Laser - Team Building

Went for team building session with co-workers.

Twas fun and unexpectedly tiring..

Was running around to save my ass from being hit my laser..

okays, atleast its so much better than paintball..

No pain hahaha...

well, some say 'no pain, no gain'

Laser was good enough for me..

but the darkness kind of like scares me a lil...

there are also secluded areas where ppl can hide and

take out other shooters..

this is so unfair..

tsk tsk..

Team Photo, yays! ~

Shooted on the my colleagues, straight to his face

Okays, got shot by the boss... its ridiculous...

he was so eager to shoot his employees...

gahhh...

nuff said, so far this is it..

hope to get back with more update =)

2011-09-26T11:52:00.011+08:00

2011-09-19T09:47:00.003+08:00

Blogging has been a hussle lately due to the Blogger App in Android...

gawd... it 'flushed left' all the photos that i uploaded...

on the other hand, it's never easy to blog via mobile...

niways...

i m here to rant again..

this time is about people around me that is being a biatch.....

nevertheless backstabbing isn't enough..

bad-mouthing is the least that i could take...

wtf is wrong with people these days..

its either they liked you or they hated you..

wow...

whatever it is, i did my part to blend in and all sorts

but the world is realistically painful...

when someone hate you, they'll hate you forever

least that i could do, stay out of it...

take it as it is eventhough it is painful

sometimes even blamed myself for what i've done wrong..

but couldn't find any answers to this misery..

so ranting is the best of all things

which is why this blog have been with me for almost 4 years..

the place which i could biacth about others without spoiling other ppl's name

well, i hate doing that.. i don't see any point to it to back-mouth others..

from my analysis - watching ppl talk, topics they talk, they way they move, react, etc..

ppl these days are pretty much attention seekers...

they're being self obssesed..

thinking that they're right all the time and being very ego-istic...

must admit that myself do hold several characteristic as mentioned

and being the much stubborn person all this while..

i think it is the ONLY CHILD SYDROME...

on the other hand, while others whom have siblings,

are even MUCH more of an attention seeker than i expect it to be...

perhaps they can never be left alone (fear of being alone)

therefore, they crave for more attention from friends, colleagues, buddies, random ppl..

probably to substitute their fear of being alone..

where else, only childs are used to being alone that they don't felt

the loniness or the attention that they got...

they do rant and crave for attention but when it comes to the fear of being lonely,

i believe that only child are more capable of handling loneliness compared

to the ones that have siblings..

could this be happening because the only child knows that

no matter what, they will still be getting the attention that they want

thus... only child are cooler that the rest of the other ppl

the rest makes noise, the only child sits and stare...

probably they've got enough attention that they want..

hence, HECK those other attention seekers..

go ahead and do whatever you like and we'll do what we like...

i am unable to give an exact justification on the only child syndrome

but that's all based on the analysis from the time when i don't talk and start looking around..

sometimes when i don't talk doesn't mean that i am being arrogant,

when i stare at something, doesn't mean that i am day dreaming,

when i talk, and you find that i doesn't make any sense to you,

well, thats me......

perhaps you're not even listening to what i am saying...

life's pretty F*(&)()&*& UP!

but the most fun part

its to read with the minds of those attention seekers around you...

2011-09-18T00:06:00.001+08:00

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2011-09-17T23:59:00.001+08:00

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2011-08-23T22:04:00.002+08:00

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2011-08-21T22:15:00.003+08:00

Thanks to those whom thinks i am stupid enough to not know things that you knew...
Thanks to those whom dis-respect me for who i am...
Thanks to those whom think that they are the smartest person in this whole universe...

Thanks!

All i know is that i've done my part and probably my part isn't
up to your expectation or you just take it for granted...
perhaps it is true that people are just not thankful these days...
people seem to not appreciate effort anymore...
or perhaps ppl just don't make any effort at all...

what should i say to these ppl...
Thanks anyways...
i don't need you in my life...

You may think that i am in-appreciative enough...
or i am a person with high expectations...
or i am a stuck up person..
or i have many big request..
whatever you think it is...

cus i've given you all the respect you deserve..
cus i have given you everything that i have...
cus i have done and changed my ways of doing things to suit yours...
cus i've given up certain things just for you...

All i want in return is a simple respect..

if this is hard for you to give...

so be it...

i am nothing to you..

cus you're too busy to make an effort to tell me before hand...
cus you're too smart to think that i am the stupid one...
cus you're the greatest of all..
cus you're the decision maker..
cus you're always right..
cus you know thats the right path to go..

so just go.............................

its best that you go your way and i go mine...

so that we don't have to deal with this shit anymore...

perhaps, you'll just make your own choices and
i'll make my own..

fair enough....

it doesn't make any sense that we are growing together anyways..

more of like parting each ways......

...............
....................

so be it.................

Updates from mobile

2011-08-14T11:03:00.004+08:00

Updates from Mobile

Ohh yea, been using Photo Wonder for some photo editing...
looking at the power of editing applications...
it manages to beautify your looks with just one click..

Eyes were bigger than usual =p

Giving it a Sweet effect

Again, bigger eyes plus blue tone effects....

Bigger eyes plus slimmer face XD

Gawd... look at the vast difference after photo editing...

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2011-07-29T16:28:00.002+08:00

+ Happy Days +

I have two new things that come into my life....

a Sony Ericson Xperia Play & a pup - Ah Po...

Knowing that i rarely update my blog anymore

reason being that i prefer to hide everything that i have...

its been weeks that i live in a do-not-wanna-tell-state

stupid things happened that i'll never forget..

and it is a choice that i have to make in within few hours

If i were to go with Choice A, i'll ended up affecting everyone around me.

If i were to go for Choice B, i'll be able to save everyone's feeling

but the worst thing is that i have to bare it all on my own...

i went for Choice B - which then made everything come tumbling down on me..

I've realised that 'feelings' are the worst thing ever that

is drowning me day by day. Lost things can be replaced but if its a lost 'feeling',

nothing can ever replace it.

Knowing that i have something that i really wanted so badly

but i just let it go without any second thoughts.

After knowing that it was gone, i felt 'empty'.

and also knowing that i can still have it back,

however the feeling of losing it has been so great that sometimes

i wanna run away from everything to give myself some breathing space.

It has been a suffocating week, day by day are passing by

and i'm just living on, without anything to look forward

thats because i've got that 'lost' feeling which haunts me.

And knowing plus managed to prove that reality are harsh...

Reality don't really bring in hapiness...

Happiness is just a dream to me...

I've been living in reality for years... and lately, i've seen more of REALITY

situation which makes me even more reality driven...

sometimes how i wish i could live in a dream....

days seemed pretty dull for me because i have absolutely 'nothing' to look forward to...

life is pretty meaningless to me now... Alcohol is no longer a must-have as compare to

last time... clubs & bars are no longer my interest.....

movies and shopping is not in my priority....

basically, nothing seems interesting to me...

i'm in a state of where i'm just passing my time now...

if you were to ask me what excites me, i'll perhaps tell you 'nothing'......

2011-06-29T08:41:00.004+08:00

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2011-06-20T08:30:00.003+08:00

Its irrational, insane, un-predictable emotional roller coaster i am going through
for weeks. Started off with the aussie trip that i went,
which i had a serious sore throat, fever and running nose...
which then puts me into some minor problems that i have to deal with at work.
As days passed, minor becomes major problem
yet pretending everything is under control until
i don't even realise that stress is building up..
well, i have not explode yet, not wanting to, hence
trying to release it bits by bits to avoid major explosion.
Gawd...
now everything is everywhere..
making myself confuse again..
probably i shall leave all those things as it is..
it is so emotionally depressing..
ughh... again knowing certain things which i wish i wouldn't know..
taking things so seriously is always what i do..
nonetheless,
i am also leaving behind the things that i once take it so seriously..
wondering whether is it a positive or negative start..

2011-06-06T15:11:00.006+08:00

Blogging Surprise

Today was quite a surprise to me as i checked my blogger account.
Saw the analytic of viewers that read my blog...
hmmm.. quite unusual due to the fact that the amount of readers
came from such a diversified country.
First thing that comes to mind is that,
there is a huge burst of Blog Walking activities occurring in my blog
which causes the highest possibility of viewers reading my blog
or perhaps just SPAMMING my blog with comments.
Gah..it sucks to have spammers....
So this is how the looks of the graphs of readers that's
spotted in my blog...
*so colorful*

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My Thoughts

I would really really appreciate that certain people do not
trigger my weaknesses.
I am not saying this to people whom barely know me,
I am indicating this to people who know me in and out..
who knew about my weaknesses, please do not
trigger me.
I am not a emotionally strong person and this makes me who i am.
if you think of changing me, i can tell you this - BACK OFF.
i can tolerate anything but not certain things.
I do things for a reason and even if you think i make
drastic decision, you are wrong.
I've already made the decision long time ago but
i believe in second chances.
I gave all i got even second chances
but worst thing that hits me is THE THING that triggers me.
tolerating it once or twice is more than enough for me...
i do not need your mental abusing technique that triggers my un-happiness..
the only thing that i ever wish is to be happy and yet
i can barely even achieve that..
happiness is like a bonus to me..
bonus is not something which you can get all the time
so i hate those people who screw up the bonuses.

2011-06-02T22:00:00.003+08:00

Working Life Updates

What i do for living - Eat, walk around, chit chat, shopping, sit in office
case close.. that's what i do... well, perhaps the boss shall do something about this
if he ever see this post.. but ohh well, we are living in a social community world right now...
everything is transparent, people can dig up infos about you..
kudos to Facebook for building up such an impactful solution that brings
the communities closer... BUT, one thing for sure in this technology era,
the TRUTH is always unknown.
The reason why i am saying this is because, we are all constantly updated about
world news, product news, keeping in touch with friends & family but can we guarantee the truth? Perhaps NOT! Apart from that, We are probably also
taking things for granted reason being that we are provided with all these services that is
making everything so easily accessible.
There is no more, hassle & effort being shown because we knew that we can
easily get something just at the tip of our fingers.
Well, that's the pros' of technology.
During my working hour, i've keep bumping into Nuffnang manager,
Nicholas Chay. (okays, tagged him here) =p
Look! this is how easy it is to look for him via Facebook,
typed his name then there it goes, found his FB page.
For others, it might be good but for me, its pretty much scary.
the fact is that, people get to know my every single detail like
what i studied, where i live, my email plus they could even stalk me.
Well, i know i am being paranoid but hey, thats just the way i am.
i wouldn't say that i am against the viability of google, facebook & social networks
but i just want to point out that, we are in fact pretty much
exposed to the world and people are able to judge who are we..
and THAT is not what i would ask for.
Imagine someone has already gage your attitude, reactions and subconscious thinking
before meeting you in person, wow...... that would be a big no-no for me.
So, yeah... what i do for a living ? i am in New Media, the place which
i am half in and half out... i would dare say that i am an old media fan..
so be it..... it doesn't matter, as long as i did my part and gave my 110% at work
i am up for anything... Online will always stay as it is and growing steadily across the years
but i am looking for the revolution of old media and i believe it shall
regain its stand alongside with the digital media.

2011-05-25T00:02:00.002+08:00

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

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so much to do, so little time...
its about time to focus on my goals cuz i've got good news
but the good news is a hush hush
had promised that i would not reveal anything yet
until everything was finalize..
can't wait to get back into something i wanted to do in my life..
been neglecting it for so long due to financial reason
but now i believe i am financially stable to take up the challenge again

********************************

2011-05-19T14:12:00.010+08:00

+ The Gold Coast Experience +

Stayed in Vibe Hote l
for Four Days, it is a 4 Star rating hotel which i think the lacking
of attention in their service, i perceive it is still a 2 star hotel though
the overall stay was fine, receptionist were very helpful and friendly
just that the room service wasn't good and breakfast meal was not that tasty.

Glad that Vibe is located at Surfers Paradise which is a
10 mins walk to the beach
because i had to cross Cavill Ave before reaching Centro
and then only reach the beach.

This is how Centro looks like.
Basically it is a mini- shopping mall that have many vendors
there is also a bowling centre, shooting range, gaming centre upstairs
I've went through a build-a-bear workshop which is
really cool. I get to stuff cottons into the bear and made it puffy..
ngek ngek... bought a Green Shirt for it to wear as well..

This is how Surfers Paradise beach looks like...
Apart from the beach, we went to Dream World.
Dream World expanded their business, there is also
White Water World which has super duper high water slides
effing scary to go on the slides..

This is The Claw which many people are fond to ride on it
looks like extreme activities are everyone's favorite..

Movie World was kind exciting because we get to see
Super Heroes, Batman, Superman, Car Stunts and Extreme Rides
the coolest thing ever would be the Batman
awesome car that has become a main attraction of Movie World
through out the years...

We also went shopping..
Harbor Town has pretty good deals
good deals as in Branded Stuffs like Benetton, Polo, Lacoste
with a 60- 70% discount on all of the items
gosh.. it is like a shopper paradise..

Pasific Fair is another shopping mall with many small vendors around
though the price are cheap, but due to exchange rates,
it will never be cheap for Malaysians to shop around

Australia Fair is another shopping mall which we went
Basically due to the exchange rate, we couldn't purchase much
hence we ended up in Woolworths which is a Hyper market.
That is where i purchased Tim Tams, Monster Energy Drink, Candys, ty bear
at a very cheap cheap price.. gawd.. its so hard to shop around when
there is a point where we had to look for cheap things...

Well, i would say that AirAsia did pretty well by offering a reasonable package
my total trip was priced at RM 3,000.
that includes the flight, baggage, food, theme park fee, transportation fee
as for the personal spending, that would be relying on how much i can spend
hehehe... not much though... =D

2011-05-18T21:51:00.018+08:00

Landed on Gold Coast (13 May 2011)
My first ever trip with mom to Surfers Paradise.
Love the weather, 10 degrees.. yesh.. finally its windy and cold...
i'll still walk around in shorts with jacket but i'd admire those people
who walk around topless =p
Stayed in Vibe Hotel that gave me a beautiful view at the balcony.
Arrived Gold Coast with severa sore throat and flu..
nonetheless, it does not take away my holiday mood...
play hard - walk around with shorts still ngek ngek...
don't bother about the coldness and eventually i recover after four days
XD
here are the pics taken...

View from the room balcony

This is what i do everyday
*peace-ing at the beach*

I feed the birds every morning and evening
*lucky them & it looks like they are about to attack me*

Managed to watch DRIFTING and it is Lancers
omg.. *Drools*
good to smell those burning tires and hear screeching sounds

With the Lancer drivers
did not intend to take pics with them, i just want the CAR XD

Some broken down car i found~

Here are two shots of the drifting event.......

At DreamWorld
Nothing much in dream world, basically the main attractions are
kangaroos and koala bears
and this shark kekez.... managed to stuff my head into its mouth

Its a tortoise, not a piece of rock

Kanga + Roo
Apparently can't see the baby Roo inside the mommy's tummy...
they looked farny and cute at the same time hehe

Lizard & Me

The Indian & Me

Scooby Doo and The Gang
I've found Scooby...

Super Heroes, erm... their outfits are too colorful lolx

Well, the legendary Marilyn and Austin Powers

Mom forced me to take pics with this Tiger..
Have no idea why she likes the Tigers there...
There are a few more pics yet to be updated soon
be right back

loves
xoxo

2011-05-06T22:21:00.002+08:00

What can i do when i am unhappy ?
I'd normally laugh the unhappiness out
i'm seen to laugh more when i am at my lowest
which i don't know whether is it a positive or negative thing...
the worst thing that always fall on me is-
i end up realizing what i want and i could not freaking get it
the worst thing is-
having something that keeps making me unhappy
and i can't run away from it
the worst thing is-
people thinks that i am always unhappy
the worst thing is-
I don't even know why am i unhappy
all this ends up in a never ending cycle of -
don't know what the hell is going on in my mind...
I know what i want but i can't get it and i think i'll never get it.

How to achieve happiness ?
I think it's contentment, if you are contented with what you have,
you'll be happy. But does this mean that i am never contented?
Perhaps yes or perhaps, i can't accept the things around me.
Gosh... sometimes i wish i could just run away from everything
that i am facing and start a new life...
cus i've never tried, thats why i am unhappy...
probably i MIGHT BE happy by getting out of this current situation..
i am beginning to realize that i want to do things my own way right now
i don't want to be bounded by - responsibility.
It is driving me crazy, knowing that everyone has responsibility in their life's
but i wanna be irresponsible for awhile... been taking things too seriously
and i can't accept the fact that i am beginning to think weirdly these days
all i am chasing after is Happiness and i never really found one...
responsibilities, finance, relationships, work
all this does not make me happy at all...
i'm still searching for happiness,
does it mean that i have no life?
i think its true... don't even know what life is
people say life is short,
and yes, i still haven't get a life yet....
no college life, no working life, no friendship life, no relationship life...
atleast i still have a blogging life =p
Just pouring out my unhappiness here cus i know i can't keep it anywhere else
how nice if i could puke the unhappiness instead...
and i know i am being negative and i've said this for a gazillion time
i can't change this.. and i think its the situation that i am in that
i should change so that i can change the negativity....
and i know i can't do anything about the changes cus i cannot leave...
bound to some stupid responsibility again...
so, must stand very very effing strong for this time round
if i wanna achieve what i want...
i think i am moving towards my goals bits by bits...
therefore, should i take the worst jump ever ?
and there i go again if i ever made that decision..
i believe that in everyone's life, they will end up reaching their goals..
i've really seen it, they REACHED their goals no matter
what is their decision, there is always no right or wrong...
the goal is always reachable..
but being a coward, i am always holding back
don't know for what good reason...
probably i could not take the immense comments of others
when i announce my decision..
even the ones closes to me is not supporting what i am doing...
what else can ever make me happy...
aren't they suppose to support me and welcome me with open arms
but instead, all they think about is their reputations
is reputation that important compared to your loved one ?
that's when i realize that i have to walk on the path for myself
not walking the path for my parents or anyone else

2011-04-29T09:25:00.006+08:00

- Skincare Products -

Tried Natio products ever since their launch few months ago.
Its pretty much a good product though despite the weird smell
it has. This is because Natio uses only natural ingredients such as
palm oil. I've gotten my hands on the Ageless range which me and my mom
started trying it. My mom was very satisfied with the outcome of it.
It doesn't make the user feel sticky or greasy.
Basically it absorbs fast into the skin.
Furthermore, it is very much reasonable to be purchased by middle-end users.

I'm currently using Kose Infinity I.
I would say that it is a good product despite that
it is quite oily after applying it onto my clean-washed face.
I could not bare stickiness on my skin however
i perceive that this product do me wonders.
It moisturized the skin yet giving it a healthy glow.
There are two ranges of Infinity which is Infinity I & II.
For users above 35 years old should go for Infinity II.
This is because Infinity II catered for age-ing skin
whereby the skin should absorb more serum.
This product is priced at its effectiveness which costs
RM700 for a Facial Wash, Toner & Serum.

- The Notebook -

Initially i wanted to read this novel however,
i ended up downloading the movie instead.
It's an all time love story which evolves a rich-studious girl that falls
in love with a happy-romantic miner.
I seriously do not want to spoil the juicy part of the movie.
But it is worth watching it because after all the HOPE that you've
given up on love, this movie will show you that there is
always hope and it teaches you what love is.

- Toughy's Final Moment -

Well, this is not Toughy (grabbed this from google)
She's a Winter Dwarf that lives healthy & happy, for 2 years.
This is like the longest living Hamster that i've ever rare.
Indeed, she is also one of a kind hamster that survived
being 'sat' on - I accidentally sat on her when she was young.....
gawd.. this epic story which is going to live on & on.

And i should not be embracing the sad moments now.
Instead i'll should say that she's a Circus Hamster,
a Eat-Anything Hamster, a Running Hamster,
last but not least.....
the Toughest Hamster.

loves
xoxo

2011-04-27T14:18:00.005+08:00

Not many pics taken from Journey Through the decades,

Here are the ones that we printed out hence
i scanned for blogging purposes =p

Down with swollen eye this week...
Big sigh..
some stupid infection again... darn...
Ohh yes, will be traveling with my dearest Mommy
to Gold Coast, Aus.
After TEN friggin years of not being able to travel,
i achieved my goal No.1 XD
More goals to be achieved soon and in many years time...

Looking forward for this weekend...
Lennon & Lewis will be in KL.
Yays..

Loves
xoxo

2011-04-19T11:46:00.001+08:00

Star 40th Anniversary
Partay @ Rooftop, Lot 10

With the boss....

Loves
xoxo

2011-04-13T17:37:00.004+08:00

Wishing upon the stars, hoping that there is no disappointment.
when everything come crashing down on you,
sometimes you wish there is someone to be able to support you,
not just by saying 'i'll support you' but rather,
having the one being by your side
because words will never be a shoulder to lean on...
sometimes we wonder why some people has someone to lean on
but I myself, will always be standing alone...
there is no one that dares to lend me their shoulder
i wonder why...
i may refuse your offer but what makes me refuse,
it is because you seem to have something more important in your mind
rather than coming or insisting your offer.
what makes me insecure,
it is because there is lesser communication and whenever there is,
it will end up in a miscommunication
no more give and take..
things seems to be too much,
you are going your way and i am left alone to go on my own way
sometimes i wonder, can i ever go back onto the same path
sometimes excuses takes place..
as for me, the longer i am holding onto the thing,
the more affectionate i would be...
however, it seems to be the opposite for others,
the longer you're with the thing,
the least interest you'll be
and by using that as an excuse, it is totally ridiculous.

The city feels clean this time of night
Just empty streets and me walking home
To clear my head
And though it came as no surprise-i know it came as no surprise
I'm affected more than I had guessed
By what was said-then why i was sad

If this loves not meant to be
If a hearts not ready to open
If the naked eye won't see
It's broken.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/l/late_night_alumni/empty_streets.html ]
It's that quiet time before the dawn-it's a quiet time before the dawn
And I'm half past making sense of it
Was I wrong?
Should I think to give it all-should i claim to give it all?
In a world where not much ever seams
To last long.

If this loves not meant to be-if this love is not meant to be,
If a hearts not ready to open-if the hearts not ready to open
If the naked eye won't see-if we make it i won't see
It's broken.

Lyrics Here

2011-04-07T09:16:00.002+08:00

Screwed up my Blog Template yesterday =(
the whole blog was in critical condition yesterday due to the jumbled up
of the tables and information and i don't know how to fix it hence i deleted the whole
HTML script for my blog.
I was super sad, okay, i know, sad over a blog template.
But i've been maintaining this template for years.
Luckily, thank god...... i managed to traced back the HTML codes.
That is by referring back to the credit owner of this blog template
though i managed to get the codes, i still need to reshuffle the coding
all over again. I had to put in the headline image, the infos, cbox
and Nuffnang ads.
There is something that i learned yesterday,
it is not to click on the Monetize tab in blogger.
This is because it activates Ad Sense which allows google to run ads
in your blog. The saddest thing is, i don't mind having ads running in my blog
but the ad space such as the Leaderboard, Medium Rectangular & Skyscrapper
are totally un-manageable. Unlike Nuffnang, I can manage the ad space
just as i like it. I can place it at the spot that i am comfortable with.
Which Ad sense don't allow that- once i activated it, the leaderboard
appeared automatically on my Diary Tab.
this is horrendous to me because it messed up my tables.
It made my blog looks weird and aesthetically unpleasant.
Nuff said, i would end the post here.

2011-04-06T15:33:00.000+08:00

Sony Ericsson Xperia Play

Xperia Play seems pretty much like to bomb to me. Sony Ericsson made a collaboration with PlayStation

which is why they came out with this phone model. Well, too bad that this phone's launch was delayed.

According to engadget, this model should be launching Mid April, however it will be only in Europe and UK.

The model will then arrive US later and Malaysia would probably only be able to

launch it mid of the year, hopefully *keeping fingers crossed*

After much review from gadget sites, most of the comments were pros.

Apart from the battery life span, overall the phone has its advantages.

The screen is much larger than iPhone, oopppss..... too bad MAC, your screen too small

it runs on Android platform aka Gingerbread,

which is the fastest Android to date.

The best part is yet to come, which is the Real Game Controller.

It has a dedicated gaming keys and analog touch joystick.

This is what i am looking for in a phone. The ultimate breed of casual gaming and tele-comm.

Apart from that, it has a 5.1MP which it more than enough for me to take good shots.

I somehow still very much in-love with Sony Ericsson's build in camera.

Well, there is so much to say for this phone, let the pic do the talking.

And also, lets hope it will arrive Malaysia's shore in mid of 2011.

Sliding out the gaming console.

PSP gaming keys and analog touch joystick.

Thickness of the device - i like it!

SIM card + Memory can be taken out without removing the batts.

2011-03-29T11:48:00.000+08:00

The Lomo Smena 8M

Did another research today and i found Lomo Smena 8M.

To my surprise this cam model runs on 35mm film which is easily available

in any photo shop. However, the cons of this model would be the viewfinder ,

according to the research, most people find it somehow useless because the viewfinder

does not play any role in this model.

The bomb of this model would be the faux leather casing.

Apparently i found the shop that sells the camera, however,

they do not have the casing. which is kinda pointless.

Below are the feature of the camera:

Film Type: All standard 35mm
Lens: Triplet 43 / 40mm, f/4
Weight: 289g
Size: 70 x 100 x 60mm

Focal Range: 1m to infinity
Shutter Speeds: B, 1/15, 1/30, 1/60, 1/125, 1/250
Aperture Ring: 8 blades
Apertures: f/4, f/5.6, f/8, f/11,f/16
Flash: PC connection only

Best part is, it is a fully manual camera which takes patience plus

knowing the shutter speed and aperture setting would be the rule of thumb

when using this camera. Basically, there won't be any viewfinder to guide the user,

hence, it is basically shooting images off the hook.

Sounds kinda challenging!

2011-03-28T12:06:00.000+08:00

Thinking of getting a lomo camera. Don't know why am i still thinking of whether to get a lomo

cuz i've already been eye-ing for one since last year. Being the kind of person that only take action after months or years of consideration. And now i am having a hard time searching for things that is not easy to find.

i once saw a huge collection of lomo cams in Action City, Gardens, and now, it is totally wiped out from the store, the only thing left are the lomo films. Gawd, why are they selling lomo films still but not selling the cams.

i am surveying on what type of lomo that suits me which i came across a few useful websites that expresses the objective of lomography.

Lomo is nothing about skills nor rule of thumb,

its about you and how to see the world.

Initially i was eye-ing on Diana F+ which is highly recommended because

of its user friendly features. However, the cons of Diana F+ is that it does not run

with 35mm films cus 35mm are basic films and you do not need to spend

extra penny on special films which are hard to get. Sadly to know that Diana F runs on 120mm films.

Diana F+

Features:
- Multiple exposures
- Variable focus settings
- Variable aperture settings
- Bulb (B) mode (for long exposures)
- Flash hotshoe (to attach flash)
- Removable lens for Pinhole Function
- Shutter Lock and Tripod Thread for solid long exposures and pinhole photography
- Uses 120mm film (roll film)

Source taken : the click shop

Thus, i furthered my research to other lomo cams and i came across LC-A.

It seems to fit my requirements of lomo cams which it takes in 35mm film and

the photo effects are nonetheless similar to Diana F+.

From the research of LC-A, this cam was sourced from Russia which

makes it even more interesting. Russian photography looks pretty authentic

back then in those eras. From what it is now, i'll perhaps go for LC-A.

The Lomo LC-A

Features:
- Minitar 1 32/2.8 lens
- Multiple Exposure switch for easy, real-time double-exposures
- Expanded film ISO settings from 100 to 1600
- Cable release thread for shake-free nighttime and indoor shooting
- Hot shoe for external flash
- Uses 35mm film (normal film)

Source taken : the click shop

LOMO LC-A+ GOLD

It was first produced in the (then) Soviet Union in 1984, the camera was designed as a quality snapper for everyday photography, complete with the iconic Minitar 1 lens for vivid, wide angle images and auto exposure for great snaps in all light. Oh yes - it was the camera that started the Lomographic Society 25 years ago.

But less of the history, let's look at this gem of a version, which offers up 24 carat gold-leaf gilding, 'finest' brown leather wrapping, an original Russian Minitar lens, wooden casing, a unique number and certification sheet guaranteeing its authenticity, two rolls of Lomography 800 Film in a golden tin and the 'Lomographiere' hardcover book. You can see all of that over the page, but if you want one right now, get a rush on as there's only 130 being made, selling for £460.

Source taken : lomography website

2011-03-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

When was the last time i am truly happy... it have been awhile since i enjoyed that true moment of happiness.

its no longer felt these days. Things begun to change as time past. And time past really quick for the changes to appear and strike me right before i know it was coming. Sometimes i wish the changes could pass by me like a wind but some people say, things should be as it is because sometimes it could turn out far worst than this.

Changes are not supposed to be changed, gotten an advise that changes are hard to judge whether it is positive or negative. Changes are whether could I accept or not. At times, it is hard to accept the changes, it goes to the extend that you're accepting unwillingly. Which ends up, I am cheating myself once again.

I wonder, why do people are not true to themselves. Sometimes, it is because of the circumstances, that those people had to fake acceptance just because of the sake of others. Like what i am doing every now and then, faking acceptance is what we all do everyday. I wish i could just walk away from cheating myself. But it is never easy. It is never easy to just walk away because we are who we are. We wanna to achieve or get what we want, therefore, we fake our acceptance so that we can get what we want.

but i wonder, can we work together to achieve mutual acceptance rather than making a fake one.

not many that i see today could achieve mutual agreement, this is because, we always give reasons and avoiding the changes. we strive to get perfection but we also strive to avoid flaws so that we would look perfect. what in the end would we end up in?

i felt that every one of us in this world are walking through their paths of life - solo.

we all wish upon the stars that life is a fairy tale but it never is.

you somehow knew that you are and always will be walking alone.

there won't be togetherness even if you had it, changes will break togetherness apart.

perhaps embracing solo will be a better way to happiness rather than depending and expecting others to give it to you.

even if others could provide happiness to you, it is what they thought that is making you happy but do they really know that you are truly happy. they never know what you're thinking, they can only see and judge your external expression, unfortunately, internally, it is only you will know whether it is truly what you want.

the saddest part is, we sometimes expect too much. Humans made us like this, we cannot run from expectations. More or less, i felt like we can never escape from expectation.

expectations seems to be the deadly weapon that is killing me day by day.

does anyone have expectation eraser ? i do wish i could erase off some of the expectations that is lingering inside me. I feel like a withering blossom, the more it withers, that's where i prepare for the worst.

death will be the last resort to kill the expectations.

2011-03-12T23:29:00.001+08:00

Thanks to shitty weekends

i can't wait for weekdays to arrive

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Feel the adrenaline
Moving under my skin
It's an addiction
Such an eruption

Sound is my remedy
Feeding me energy
Music is all I need

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

2011-03-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

Movies Watched in a Months Time

Definitely Maybe is quite a touching movie. The reason i mention quite is because

the movie basically revolve around the guy that couldn't decide who he loves.

He is afraid that his daughter might not be able to accept the women his truly loves

which is not her mom. Haaahah, kinda ironic and at the same time

it is hilarious and touching

should give this movie a try =D

The Walking DEAD

Zombie movie again ngek ngek...... overall this movie revolves around

how survivors survive a zombie outbreak.

There are a few tips given on how to distract zombie's attention

plus several smart moves on how to escape tight situations

quite a decent movie that's worth watching despite the movie

looks like a low budget movie, plus it has only six episodes so far (Season 1)

however the scary part of watching it, those zombie have super gory looks

with head shots and guts being blasted out from their bodies

ughhhhh....

Movies yet to be watched:

I Love You Philip Morris

A Lot Like Love

When you're gonna stop breaking my heart
I don't wanna be another one
Paying for the things I never done
Don't let go
Don't let go
To my love
I hate to see you cry
My love is dying inside
I can fix all those lies
But baby, baby I run, but I'm running to you
You won't see me cry, I'm hiding inside
My heart is in pain but I'm smiling for you
Oh baby I'll try to make the things right
I need you more than air when I'm not with you
Please don't ask me why, just kiss me this time
My only dream is about you and I

Loves

xoxo

2011-02-18T14:53:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since the last update,

this post would be a guinea pig post because i am testing out Social Media.

For the reason being that i am currently working in New Media,

it only occurs to me now of what Social Media is all about.

the categorization of Social Media is not only meant- Facebook, Twitter & Blogger ,

there is a whole loads of junk in Social Media that we do not realise.

Like what i am doing now, if you were to realise, i am starting to tag words

TAGGING could be consider one of the key point in Social Media which leads

to the targeted key areas that the readers wants to read about.

Although it sounds confusing, but here is an example of

how those smartass people has been using Social Media:-

Dawn Yang

Every girl would probably has heard and read her blog and

, that's where she get paid by Nuffnang for featuring advertisements in her blog.

Apart of just advertisement placement, she's been reviewing products, tagging them

and even made a short video of herself consuming the product,

wouldn't that consider social marketing or so to speak, another loop hole

of Social Media. Back then, social media was just Friendster, Myspace

NOW, there is all sorts of sites that links together with several other sites

that creates a LINKAGE of information.

Dawn Yang is actually spreading her own knowledge, experience alongside

with the product itself which will then influence readers to actually

pick up the product in stores and start using them,

just because Dawn Yang said the product works for her.

It isn't just about facebooking, twittering and blogging for now,

it seems to me like we are embracing other people's way of living.

From what they use everyday to what they wear and what people do,

social media has become a personal diary,

a marketing technique through personal life's stories which most of the advertisers are targeting.

User Testimonial has also been taken up by advertisers as one of their marketing tactics.

Is there a new way of Social Media-ing ?

I believe so, contest has emerged as one of the method used by advertisers these days.

This is where contestant are to blog about the product or contest to stand a chance

to be the CHOSEN one to join the contest.

Heck, why does the advertisers now choose contestant ? Back then, contestants are to choose

which contest they want to participate.

After being the chosen one, contestants are to submit photos and get their photos

being LIKED in facebook.

Erm, that is where the SPAMMING comes in.

The amount of likes are then accumulated by the organisers

whereby the real contest only takes place for those chosen ones with highest likes.

This is the stage where participants will have to start Twitting while in the running of completing

the contest. Massive updates on Twitter and FB status which sometimes unnecessary.

Organizers will then create anticipation among contestant and readers

regarding the competition.

Thats where anticipation gets too BORED!!!

following the whole process of updates in Twitter & FB which takes up

the duration of almost 1 - 2 months perhaps.

Sorry, readers are already bored when it comes to the final stage of the competition.

Announcement of WINNER.

Errrrrrr, sorry to say this, NO MANY people will bother whether you win or not.

All they want is just to know what are you doing and what are you wearing or

they are just plain bored, surfing around social network just to pass time.

So, eventually, do you think this Social Media method works?

Its about time to Brainstorm of NEW social media method that really works.

having said that, the social are evolving like viruses, hence,

the social network are trying to catch up. People do often say that we have to catch up

with the social network, nonetheless, it is actually THE NETWORK should be

catching up with humans.

NETWORKS are dead programs.

HUMANS are evolving cells.

What do you think???

Nuff said, here are proper update of ME,

Was thinking of adding some bodykits to my car thus,

in the lookout for modification ideas..

These are Vios Mod... anyhow, still researching for bodykits

cuz i am aiming to go for either sporty or fierce look

Just found this out of no where, Alien Car that looks awesome

but not practical perhaps.......

Okays, didn't realise that i have the same pose most of the time

loves

xoxo

2011-02-02T11:11:00.000+08:00

Happy Bunnie Year!

These cookies made by my colleague

Bought some flowers for decoration

Had nothing better to do in the morning of

chinese new year eve..

suppose to go to work and knowingly that

the road gonna be clear hence i spend more time at home

Getting fatter already. i was panning to loose weight before CNY.

Afraid that i couldn't fit into my new clothes =p

been going to lunches and dinners for company's purposes

straight 5 days in a week i've been eating

8 course meal =(

and i know that i've been wasting food cus

i did not finish my food, afraid of gaining weight..

apparently, i was surprised that i did not gain any

despite the whole week eating

yays!

2011-01-06T09:57:00.000+08:00

Little Fish Ice Cream

Buffy with Cupcake on its head

I don't know what kind of dog is this

looks like a toy poodle to me

hence, i groomed it hehehe

Evolution... yays...

Super duper powerful...

its 4 kw if not mistaken..

Starsuck's personal planner

2011-01-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

It's year 2011... I have no new year resolution... Seriously nothing... I don't know why.. Somewhat felt whole but empty at the same time..

Reflecting on last year events.. It's Been a GOOD year, definitely there's ups and down but I strongly say that it has been a great path because I learned how to express my feeling. Anyhow, I need to yet work on it this year. Carreer wise was great last year. Getting to meet helpful people. I am being ask what is my personal goals this year and my answer would be nothing. Like what I mentioned, felt whole but empty.

No matter what, I should at least have a goal this year. I would prolly go for, improving my patience and control my tears. Love myself more and spend more time with my mom and hamster.
I want to be even more hardworking this year. Save more cash and travel with mom.

As for the economic, I hope the bubble will burst ngek ngek.. Gadget price shall go down. Minimal petrol increase. More love and care from my parents. No expectations and give more instead.

Happie 2011!

2010-12-26T10:53:00.001+08:00

Birthday & Christmas Gift

My darling dragonbie got me a PINK hoody

and we welcomed a new family member

Buffy da Senget (its the teddy's name)

I called it buffy cuz its kinda buffed up and

senget is becuz its head is tilted to the left side

wat a cute little thingy hehe..

Photoshot

Clearly there is massive photoshop edited =p

sadly, not with the car that i want XD

next target : Mit EVO or My Baby Vios

2010-12-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

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......

...

Duck Feet...... ready to be eaten..

Taste weird but after eating it, mouth itchy... scary..

don't wanna eat nimore =p

Cute Hair Thing =D

@ Old Town

Crab that our family had the other day...

uhmm... erm... not healthy XD

Mini StarSuck Cup Kenneth bought.....

Camaro @ Office XD

2010-12-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

Aint she Cuteeeeeee =D

pretty smile +good pose.....

Two kawaaii little bunnies

Bie Bie @ Tenji, Solaris Mon't Kiara

Da chicken wing + huge Sotong =)

Erm.. Clams ?? Shells ? Escargots ??

Turkey Wings

Last but not least, ICE CREAMS~

Coco-coco nut

Okies, these are not from Tenji, its from Sakae..

It looks cute cus its all wrapped up like a present

thats all for now

xoxo

2010-12-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back (uh)
down that road (road)
Will she come back? (Uh)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement
Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement
I swear now I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think
I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring
Cuz I can still feel it in the air
See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair

My love of my life, My shawty, my wife
She left me, Im tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back (Uh)
Down that road (Yeah)
Will she come back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream.

When I be ridin' man I swear I see your face at every turn
Trying to get my usher on but I can let it burn
And I just hope she know that she the only one I yearn for
No more will I miss her, when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love
I guess now I got my payback
Now im in the club thinking all about my baby
HEY, she was so easy to love
But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough
I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone
And now I'm wishin' wishin' she'd pick up the phone
But she made a decision that she wanted to move on
Cause I was wrong.

*Currently addicted to this song*

*******************************************************

Having insomnia...sux! knowing that you wanna sleep

but you couldn't due to the hyper brain cells

imagine sitting in front of the comp thinking about NOTHING

seriously... gawd...

apart from just chatting through fb, there is nothing much i can do

no assignments XD

lately i've been given several campaign to work on

mainly just proposals and still sitting in front of the pc

day dreaming.. not to mention, attending long meetings

that made me yawn at least 5 times per meetings

I am thinking of starting up an Evo Virus group.

should i or shouldn't i ??

I am thinking of going for photoshoot with my baby VIOS

should i or shouldn't i ??

I am thinking of spending time with my loved one

but i have no idea where to... at home or not at home ??

For these past few months, I've been meeting people that are full of bullshits.

wat i mean by bullshit is that, their actions portray great intention

and what they say contra with their actions

this is wat i called BULLSHIT!

Nuff said, i wouldn't want to further explain here..

going to bed now..

xoxo

2010-12-08T21:20:00.001+08:00

With the Blue Label... Have not tasted it :'( :'( :'(

Apparently there is a chance to taste it but no one get it for me

sadness!

From Big Apple

shoooo cute!

Angel got me this as my 22nd bday gift...

so sweet of her ^^ love it!

The Bling Bling that i can't get my eyes off it...

My Birthday Cake

so sweet and nice of my colleagues to get it for me

yays

Had company lunch at San Francisco Steak House

Birthday Gift from U-Kay

Best buddy bought it for me ^^

*Droollllllsss its a X-Six*

For Fun Before going to work...

erm.. just realise that the clock says ten minutes to nine

and i am still at home

2010-12-06T16:03:00.000+08:00

Bangkok Pics

just gotten it from the office ppl

Before leaving to Bangkok... moodless cus it was 9am-ish...

First night gathering in the Hotel

We have to self introduce to the crowd

Then comes the Drama...

Forcing customer to buy the bag.........

The "Just Woke Up" look XD

They are aiming me cus i am still sleepy

Spot me ?

i was restless after the Amazing Race.. Half Dead to be exact, hence the looks...

thats all ^^

xoxo

2010-12-03T11:06:00.000+08:00

Pictures heavy post :P

i have a lum sum of pics being kept in a folder in the office,

might as well just upload it here hehe...

The pic below are taken during a colleague's farewell dinner..

about 2 months ago

The person on the far Left is Timothy aka The Boss

Here is the pics taken using a Lomo Camera

My colleague giving me this when i wanna snap a pic of him

The Constipated Look XD

Pics below are taken on 1st Dec.... so nice of them to organize a burrffffday lunch for me
Is that wat everyone would ask, ' what do you do for your birthday '
and my typical answer is... ' Eat rice and do nothing cus i am freaking lazy to plan '
Well, this is for this year.
I practically managed to force my colleagues to drive me for client meetings
XD

@ Fontera, Jaya One

Okay, they made me do this.. typical laa...

Thats all for now... must go back to work...

cheers ^^

xoxo

2010-11-24T17:01:00.000+08:00

Okaiiisssss... i am updating this via office again...

this time around i brought along Reader Digest so that i can read to kill time

but.. i m not in a reading mood..i've been slacking alot lately, as in

didn't read much =p well, i've been peeping through blogs and news galleries

this means that i've been reading more through online compare to reading through hard copy

ish ish... not a good sign...

This week has been a total sad week for me.

First, i was lingering around facebook and i saw this long hair girl

holding a bunny.. well, i clicked on the video just for curious purposes..

i saw the girl was playing with the cute cute bunnies but it turned nightmare

after seeing what she did to the poor bunny

here is the news about it:

http://www.dailychilli.com/news/7897-chinese-girls-paid-to-crush-small-animals

For the sake of satisfying their own needs, they crushed the bunnies just like that.

GAWD... where does those girls put their heart, prolly in their butt...

this is effing SICK... and they could even laugh about it..

big sigh~

after which, i came across another sadist news..

a 17months baby girl was raped, how on earth this happened ??

http://www.dailychilli.com/news/7880-17mth-baby-abused-and-sexually-attacked

Practically these sort of news really reflect a Sadist World that we're in...

what happened to the society, or others would say,

This is the society that we're living in. Get used to it.

wth.. if this is the case, do something about it...

where are all those welfare? do they provide a full medical and psychological support for the child

now this is very vague society, why do they report the terrible things that has happened

but i've rarely see them reporting the story behind the terrible things..

as in, what happened to the victim after that, are they recovering and fully supported

by family members and government institute ?

there is always a pre-review but no post-review......

sometimes it is better to know the after math because

it might be motivational and encouraging to the society instead of

portray how sick ppl are these days.

I've been asked to review on this book. It is said that reviewers will get RM50

lolx...

there is a whole lot of 'thick' books and luckily this book has the least page

hence... i voluntarily grabbed it, nevertheless, after going through the introduction

the book has gotten me bored tho.. its a motivation self help book

and i rarely read self help, i prefer novels XD

2010-11-19T11:51:00.000+08:00

Watched Dear John

And there is a novel of it too..

I thought the movie would be somewhat similar to

p.s I love you

However, twas way more sentimental and touching

Not to mention that Channing Tatum did a good job on this movie.

Tatum always give one expression kinda look

however it does work for this movie compare to Step Up =p

Basically the movie revolve around John who is a soldier

And he met Savanah during his two weeks military break and

as you know how this kind of movie goes... hehe

but then, John have to serve his duty in the military for years

hence, Savanah couldn't take the distanced relationship.

i wouldn't wanna spoil the surprise of this movie tho...

Generally, this movie also talks about life in general...

it's worth watching but it causes alot of wastage on tears

I have nothing much to do in hand right now

As per usual, i'll be reading blogs and design reviews

gawddddddd....

speaking of school holiday, places will be jam packed

screw the pack-ness and enjoy the FUN XD

And i wanna get to one particular place..

probably it is in Klang... now the epic part is, I have that place in mind

but don't even know where is it particularly in Klang..

Don't laugh, i am serious... i have this place in my MIND
literally, i have this thought and imagination of this PLACE

but i effing don't know where is it

gossssssshhhhhhhh....

lately i've been having WILD uncontrolled imagination

prolly cuz i miss brainstorming and pouring out design juices

felt sooooooo not used-to-it

after four years of seeing design everyday

scrutinizing design everyday and writing thesis about design revolution

i came to felt the pinch of not giving what i have throughout the

four years... as usual, taking things for granted i assume...

humans are always not satisfied with the past and think that we can do better

how i wish i studied about car mechanism

so then i'll be able to do wonders with CARS...

Motor Fair is just around the corner

most probably i'll be attending to see some concept cars and

prolly get to see our very local Proton Inspira...ughhhh...urrrrggghh

till here then, its lunchie time now..

xoxo

2010-11-15T21:22:00.001+08:00

Roundness equals fatness =p

Carnation flower for a birthday girl

Birthday Table.. soooo cute with Pink Theme

Chicken Little ^^

Seafood Cabonara Spag


Gift Pack from Natio. The shampoo and conditioner is awesome..

Skin Supplement from Nation XD

According to mommy, their ageless serum is very good

these products are made of 100% natural ingredient

hence, it smells of chamomile

Dominic's BULLET medicine

Flying off to Bangkok

Amazing Bangkok

Handsome Thai King i guess
=p

Sunny side up, Thai's egg yolk is orange in color

Guess what, i found THIS! kekekz...

Reflecting what i learnt in Bangkok:

Think about it. Feel about it. Do it!

No excuse. Don't blame. Don't complain. Thank you!

You'll get 5 agreements out of 100 rejections!

Life is NOT FAIR!

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Loves

2010-11-06T19:24:00.000+08:00

Finally get to see the new shopping mall... That's very unusual cuz i
Normally don't go to new places... The very first time.. Hehe..
Erm... There's no photos taken cuz I'm on heels and it's killing my feet,
I've never experience such pain so far when I wore heels... Gawd... Sadness..

Now I'm just sitting here.. Don't know what to write ;p I've nothing to do..
Just stoning.. Lately I've been stoning a lot.. It means that I'm thinking but
Cannot take actions... Some sort of day dream I suppose...

There is nothing much I can do with iPad, it doesn't allow any downloads except
From iTunes... That's why I still love my pc ngek ngek... And I can only play
iPad games.. What about pc games??? Big sigh... How I wish I could play pc games
Through iPad.. It would be heavenly...

Sigh sigh sigh...

2010-11-05T22:20:00.001+08:00

Love The Way You Lie *Part 2*

On the first page of our story, the future seems so bright.
And this thing turned out so evil, I don’t know why I’m still surprised.
Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take death to new extremes.
But you’ll always be my hero, even though you lost your mind.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie.
Now this gravel in our voices, glass is shattered from the fight.
In this tug of war, you’ll always win, even when I’m right.
Cause you feed me fables from your hand,
With violet words and empty threats and it’s sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.
Ohhh, I love the way you lie.
So maybe I’m a masochist
I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave.
Til the walls are goin’ up in smoke with all our memories.

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me I’ll be sorry that you
pushed me into the coffee table last night so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I’ll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I’m nothing, I’m so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you’ll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we’re on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other’s backs
that we’ll have each other’s backs, ’cause we’re that lucky
together, we move mountains, let’s not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who’s countin’
I may have hit you three times, I’m startin’ to lose count
but together, we’ll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we’re nuts, but I refused counselin’
this house is too huge, if you move out I’ll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain’t shit you can do about it
with you I’m in my f–kin’ mind, without you, I’m out it

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.
Ohhh, I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie.

*hoping that there will be Part 3.......*

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Happie One Year Anniversary to this Blog =p
It's officially one year now.. since the day i erase the older posts
time really flies without me realizing it...
and i will be turning a year older very very soon...
thats what i call 'dooms day' XD
daddy said he wants to celebrate my birthday
quite a surprise for me cus he never say such things before
he normally forgets the day and my aunt would normally text him abt it
lol its kinda cute that my aunt reminds my dad
ermm erm... so daddy plans to buy the 'Roasted Baby Pig'
thats what i called it ngek ngek.... and my suggested to have
CRABS too... and lastly, i request for Birthday Mee..
what a planning... thats so nice and touching of my parents to actually
have an early planning for my birthday.
Unfortunately, i'll be celebrating my birthday in Office
since its Wed... probably would go for a drink or sumfin... yays.. kekez

I am now officially Online Sales Exec for The Star
hmmmmmm... thats sumfin i am proud of but i am cool about it
I am thankful for having Fenn as my mentor and helpful colleagues
NEXT, to save up money.... for rainy days
we'll never know the future..
THEN, to start up on car transformation...

=p apparently, i wanna to transform baby vios into sumfin 'great'
and after a few years time, i'll give baby vios to my mom
hehehehe... hoping to adopt a baby evo by then

till here then, can't freakin think of what to write..
my mind is clogged up... urghhh..

loves

2010-10-16T12:56:00.000+08:00

Cupcakes from WONDERMILK =D

erm.. you wouldn't wanna know what is this


Went to Bukit Jelutong for Star 39th Anniversary

Juz came back from work

FOOOOOOOOODDDDDD!!!

Here is Tita & Timothy

its her farewell dinner @ Soul Out

This explains how bored am i in the car

my baby vios XD

NOthing to do look =p

2010-10-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

Hi! Can't sleep... I'm trying to blog through iPad..
However one sad thing is, there is no photo upload tab when
I use iPad :( sob... Sob... Nevermind that, so far I'm good with
IPad.. Just that I am still veer much a PC girl kekez... But,
No complaints though, Mac does build awesome products. I love
My iPad very much but I love my bie more! Hehe

2010-10-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

Whoa... The surprise came!

Da Ipad mirror reflection!

I made a noobie photo edit XD
And.....

Then these pics below are taken while one the way up to

Jenting-HaiLand

Found a HUMMEEEEEEERRRRR BEEEEE......
Weekends are great, spending time at a colder place
and laze at home watching youtube and sleep,
Had the best Monday ever.....
Enjoyed my current job however was abit
disappointed with the office toilet,
it wasn't as clean as i thought it would be =p

loves

xoxo

2010-09-28T22:27:00.016+08:00

curi curi snap this cute lil puppy

had nothing to do =p

found these in wei jiunn's car
there are tons of them..
one of the album included Jay's signature
after years of frenship
today i found out that he is an avid fan of Jay Chou
me too ^^
yays

This is wat happen when u bring a
'vampire' to i-city XD
lights TOOOOOOOO bright
'just stand there and watch me burn'

i was sick-ed
having headache, backache, nausea =(

back to Malacca,
'nan peng-you' fetched me and mom
here is
Lewis.Lewis.Lewis

Little Lomo Camera that produces cute pics
it work like a digital camera
it has a small LCD display screen that replays
the taken pics and it comes with a
4GB Mini SD card
sadly, it was too mini that it couldn't
fit into my card reader =(
hence, i can't show you how the pics turned out to be
sory...

loves
xoxo

2010-09-23T10:00:00.009+08:00

Apple is making tons of $$!
it started off with iphone and Macbooks
Now, it's earning a gazillion by launching ipad
wert more, iphone 4 is entering the market soon
whereby MANY tech-ies are waiting for it.
personally, i dislike iphone, not offense to the ones who are
using iphone... it is just me, because i prefer phones with buttons
=p
normally i text without looking at my phone
kekez..
excuse my texting skills lately for slow msg reply
cus i've got sicked of text msg-ing..

Despite my dislike of iphone,
I do have a liking for ipad
one thing is because of the screen, its so much
larger compare to iphone XD
i like big screen gadgets
cus i hate to squint my eyes when reading
or seeing sumfin in smaller screens
hence,
i did a lil research on ipad
just for the sake of keeping up with technology hehe

The Ipad Review
from Cnet

The good: In an act of aggressive tech convergence, Apple has
consolidated your Netbook, e-reader, gaming device, photo frame,
and iPod into an elegant, affordable supergadget.
Features such as Bluetooth, 802.11n Wi-Fi, movie rentals, 10 hours of
battery life, optional 3G wireless, and the
most-celebrated App Store on the planet have us pretty worked up.

The bad: The iPad's large size is as much a hindrance as it is an advantage. As a jack-of-all-trades and a master of few, the iPad can't entirely mimic many of the specialized products it seeks to replace. The iPad's limited multitasking capabilities and lack of integrated video camera, Flash support, and HD video output already have us pining for next year's model.

The bottom line: The Apple iPad is the first affordable tablet computer worth owning, but it won't (yet) replace your laptop.

There is swarovski crystal & hello kitty ipad cover
shooo cute ^^

DEFQON DANCE FEST!!!
fyi
Defqon is like a music+dance festival
the music mainly are techno/trance/house
not for sentimental music lovers
because you'll probably get friggin sick
if you're in Defqon fest
Defqon is hosted in Australia because its
held like a party island..
check out :

http://www.q-dance.com/

u'll definitely know wat I'm talking about =D

effing syok to be in such scene XD

Well this is Sensation of White..
sumfin like Defqon which plays more of Trance music
but its held wayyyyyy to far from Malaysia tho

till' here then..
going to take a short nap again
=p

2010-09-20T20:59:00.008+08:00

The used-to-be KL Plaza has now
upgraded to Fahrenheit 88..
Pavillion bought over KL Plaza, hence now its
managed by Pavillion..cool~
It is said that this new mall in town is
inspired by Japanese shopping mall concept
and it seems most likely Uniqlo is set to launch in Fahrenheit 88
Uniqlo caters Japanese street fashion attire,
now i am hoping that clothing are priced reasonably.
after all, Fahrenheit 88 is a shopping catered for
teenagers/young adults...
but anyhow, teenagers seems to have
higher spending power
as compared to me :P

- Uniqlo -

It is under the same distributor with
Topshop, Dorothy Perkin, Diva, Pumpkin Patch

Bronx is set to launch most likely in October
yays...
GUYS - do check it out ya!
I am enjoying life right now,
so basically, i've time for movies...
here are my movie reviews
hehehe

Piranha was the GORIEST movie ever...
almost wanted to puke in the cinema, plus not to mention
sudden heart attack because the movie gave out
sudden shocking moments
gawdd......
its GORY. SCARY. FARNY. a lil bit SEXY
and to wrap up this whole movie...
it SUX! =p

First of all, JIN wasn't handsome in this movie.
i was expecting a much older guy to take Jin's role,
probably like uhm...30yrs old, six packed man...
sadly, it was a boy which i think he is probably 19
or at most 21yrs old..
the movie wasn't as good as i expected it to be
i was expecting Nina to be prettier..
and other character looks weird, cuz
they doesn't look like the game character
:(
i miss tekken game!

This is one hell-of-a-scary movie
it scares me till i can't sleep which
i ended up sleeping on the couch
alongside with my Toughy to keep me company
ggeeeezz...
should give this movie a try tho,
its mainly hand held camera,
like the blair witch project...
its pretty slow in the beginning but it gets
scarier and creepier
*warning- not to be watched at night &
watch with someone beside you*

Taken by lovely bie..
it was his idea
XD

loves
xoxo

2010-09-16T10:57:00.017+08:00

Teddy that carries da Lilies

Flower's updates again,
i was effing speechless to see such a huge
bouquet of Lilies..
i was indeed a very very very LUCKY girl
thank you so much to my bie
for always being there for me

Got Hada Labo miniature facial set
from Rotho Mentholatum
thanks to da generous client =)

Ah Yee got me this as a graduation gift
apparently she likes this teddy... so that
explains why she bought it but she couldn't keep it
bcuz of her age, hence she ended up
letting me to keep it XD

Don't they looked so-in-love ? =p

Got this from the office Raya gift from Tetra Pak

Got this from Alan :D

This is cooked in Indonesian style
super spicy tho...

Well i don't know whether that black thingy is
chicken or pork...
but it tasted okayyy...

The shape of this rice is cute-kan...

Fried Rice @ Jaya One

Ermmm...my blue lens kind of blended onto one side
leaving my left eye precisely Weird =p
AND AND AND
color lens doesn't cater for astigmatism,
i have slight astigmatism and when i went
for an eye checkup (its for my job)
that 'fella' say i rabun =S

2010-08-29T18:30:00.022+08:00

- Graduation 2010-
@ One World

Mom & I ^^

this pic is priceless hehe

Philip & me =)

The two guys who brought HUGE flowers

super -yeng- right ??!

Boon Eng & Jerome

Buddy is here too........

Pweeettie ah yee who is always here for most of
my important occasion

Lennon & Lewis!! yays.....

gorgeously picked flowers from Philip & Honey
:)

so touched by what my Honey had done for me
couldn't ask for more tho...
thank you so much bie~

xoxo
loves

2010-08-08T22:19:00.026+08:00

Here goes the pics updates

excuse this pic, i just wanna capture the blue eyes
hehe....XD

Bought this badminton keychain from Lewis
He sold it at RM3 :P

Lewis & his badminton bag

I traded in my Iswara...
gonna miss it though,
i actually kept the car batt
(save it for sentimental value)

The boys again :P

Curi-curi take pics of the things in office
kekez

Joseph, our company's distributor fella

It's during John's farewell lunch
erm..somewhere inside Jaya One

This is me, happily posing with the Blue Head :P

This is me, still happie, but someone is
forcing me to put on the Blue Head

excuse this pose...

2010-08-04T19:40:00.002+08:00

I haven't been updating my blog for weeks

there is nothing much i would like to say now
cus i don't have much time

but all i can say here is

I AM TIRED!

i don't even know what am i tired of,
i just felt like i don't have time for myself anymore
probably i am losing myself
right now, my time is mostly occupied by my job,
housework, mom, bf
there is only once in a bluemoon where i catch up with my frens
so i felt like i am going no where now..
i don't even have the time to sit down on the couch
to watch my fav E! channel
i haven't even finish reading the novel
i don't even listen to trance
i don't even have a mission,
everything felt like
PASSING THROUGH ME
without even me realizing it

i couldn't even recall my last outing with frens
there goes my days ..
i don't know where i'll end up
but all i know is
TIME IS RUNNING FAST
and
i'm just chasing after it

2010-07-17T08:24:00.012+08:00

I got a lil' bit fat
my face got 'rounded' XD

Found my bardy in JUICE mag
& he'z very proud of himself :P

Had Sushi buffet @ Tao's, Sunway Giza
Thanks bie for bringing me along ^^
Giza wasn't as bad as i thought,
It'z very spacious, quite a simple architecture
overall, itz a nice place
just that with all that space they have,
i wonder what the're gonna do with it
such a waste :P

HomeMade CuppaCake again
XD

My mom made these,
its a small business though

Collections from McD

i miss my honeybie
:(

2010-07-14T08:50:00.002+08:00

Yays, finally have watched twilight ;)

Twas way better compare to New Moon,
i am craving for more action scene rather than
watching Edward and Jacob fighting over Bella.
Love story wise, its a lil bit complicated
but the ending was good enough tho
well.. as compare to most vampire movies,
there is not much facts about vampires.
I prefer movies like True Blood/ Blades

Heard that inception is a good movie to watch.
Sumfin surreal, which reminds me of Salvador Dali
might probably watch it during the weekend
:D

I miss shopping tho.

Want to shop for some clothes cus
my working attire is not enough to sustain the whole week
and bangz! i couldn't wear casual to work,
it has to be formal
effing-sick-wit-formal-wear
how i wish i am in the PR department
casual-wears-are-allowed

nuff said..
xoxo

2010-07-11T07:42:00.008+08:00

Greetings Darlinks,
here are some food updates
kekez

Cuppa Cakes from WonderMilk
:D

CHicken Katsu Set
Not nice :(

My colleague's mocktail drink
the menu didn't mention mocktail
instead, it wrote
"non alcoholic cocktail"
isn't it called mocktail?!!
O.o

Snapped this from Millennium building

Had banana leaf rice @ SS2 Kana's
apparently there is a SS2 Mall
which i didn't know existed
:P

Went to Berjaya Hotel
twas Quite a nice place tho

This is an effing scary fish to eat
found this from a menu @ a chinese restaurant

loves
xoxo

2010-07-03T07:48:00.008+08:00

Finally i can upload pics......

I saw my teddy's cousin got stuck
in Bamboo @ KLCC

I want the PINK version of this
cute little plushie from
McD, which i only can get it next week

I made my teddy wear this
:P
i know it looks farny hehe
but its cute wert?!

Beautiful Trees @ Tropicana Mall

For PORK LOVERS
you can try Ninja Joe @ Tropicana Mall
:D

2010-07-01T13:18:00.004+08:00

I wanna watch TWILIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

well, according to the review from the previous twilight,

the Saga New Moon wasn't really a good movie after all

probably cus it revolves too much love affairs

whereby Bella was confused over her feelings for

the VAMPIRE or the WOLF

well, personally, i do enjoy New Moon though

mayb cus i was watching with the person i like

kekez

now comes eclipse, in which i reckon it will

be a good movie,

watched the trailer and it seems like they've

improved on the graphics of the wolves..

omigosh..

i can't wait to watch it

Heard that the next Proton Waja

shall looks like this >>

jeeez... of all the other cars out there, why do they use

LANCER?!!!!!!!

anyhow, i'll wait and see...

I am currently bored,

as per usual,

i have tons of magazines here to read

Juice, mY, Oxygen etc

gawd..

i can't msn, apparently, the laptop i am using

has some internal problem

ughhhhh...

can't post pics here too cus the bluetooth isn't working

arghhhhh...

so sleepy

ish ishhhhhhhhhhh...........

anyways,

will updates with pics soon

xoxo

loves

SONY CYBERSHOT K810i

2010-06-25T23:38:00.013+08:00

I just realized something unusual,
which is the phone i am currently using
for almost 2 years now
and it had quiet an unbelievable camera function.
it has a 3.2 Megapixel cam
whereby i think its capable & sufficient in taking
good quality photos
well, since its a CAMERA designed to fit into a PHONE,
what else will you expect from it isn't it.
and to my surprise,
it could capture and edit shots into
the ones shown below.
amazing huh?!

eventually, i don't have the best camera
or a dslr
but like what people used to say
we might not have the best of everything
but we make the best out of what we have.

Little Miss Toughy

Cute little pink BARNY =)
&
I like taking pics of FOOD lately
kekez

Fried Rice @ Sunway

Vegetarian food
:P

Sushi's

Home made spaghetti

&
A hand made
Anniversary gift from me
^^

loves
xoxo

2010-06-20T23:42:00.003+08:00

Rejection suckz...and yes, everyone won't like to be rejected

jus that i am used to keeping things to myself and
i couldn't voice out wat i'm supposed to tell
cus i m used to getting rejection when i speak my point
i'll always end up giving in, mayb cus i am not strong enough
or i am not brought up in a situation where i could not defend my
own point of view, and i think in my 21 years of life,
i am always saying YES to everything,
no matter right or wrong, my judgment seems to be
such a failure :(
so i somehow give up,
i dun really wanna say my point cus it seems useless
when i opened up and speak to my parents
things ended up like shiat
when i once opened up to my ex
things ended up like shiat too
all i know, NOW,
that i have a very understanding and caring bf
but i am still not used to opening up my thoughts
as in, i am still afraid and uncomfortable
saying my own point of view
cus i am afraid it might hurt or upset the one i love most
that is why i always ended up giving in
therefore, i think i should learn how to voice out my feelings
to the ones i am closed with
perhaps, spending more quality time together
so that i wouldn't feel any pressure when i wanna speak
my point of views
and not to forget,
lately i've been getting loads of emotional support from
angel, who was a good friend of mine,
which she also encounter several similar situation like me
so she understands how i felt
this is the type of friend which i truly appreciate
and could count on when i have bad times
one is enough for me to cherish
=)

loves
xoxo

2010-06-17T07:59:00.004+08:00

Watched Coco Chanel Avant Garde
The movie was good
if you like biographies then i reckon you'll like this movie
it might sound or look boring
but heck, the storyline was awesome
it portrays how the real world is, not to mention,
how we ought to handle situation surrounding us...
the storyline talks more about love whereby it shows
what coco did in order to survive love
and to my surprise,
she was never married
and her fashion empire is as strong as ever
therefore,
if u wanna know how she made to this stage
give this movie a go..
you will have no regrets ;)

Out of boredom...
and i'm suffering from insomnia lately
gawd..
sux..

Found this in fb
facebook seems a lil scary to me
cus it allows ppl to tag you in pictures or in whatever you're doing
privacy seems to be over comprehended nowadays
however, i perceive privacy has been a sort of like a
'instant fame booster'
of which i came across many websites that shows pics
of girls or should i put them as so called model
and they bare more than they wear
:S
i assume that the girls might not realize the down side
of those pics they took and post it in several website
or use it to join
several online modeling competition
i think we're now living in a visual world,
everything that we look, feel and taste
are now put into visuals
taken for instant,
posters, billboards and fashion pics
don't they look rather appealing and desirable?
and when visual overwrites our mindset,
we might tend to sway towards a visual inclined individual
we might want to look, feel and taste the
pic perfect visual that were being showed to us everyday
That is why i'm seeing pics of girls doing modeling lately
which ends up making all the girls looked pretty much alike
so as to say,
it made it difficult to identify the strength of the individuals
cus in every pic, i see similar poses, fashion style, hair style
and makeups.
Thus,
it numbs us all.
I don't know whether it numbs you
but it numbs me visually
i'm searching for some fresh new ideas
that omits naturalistic feel

i'll stop here then
gotta renew roadtax
xoxo

2010-06-11T09:05:00.003+08:00

.................+ The un-debatable context +.............

Reading this whole paragraph that i've written would
probably make u think that i've lose my confidence or
i've lost my belief in people
well i will put it in another way -
i might not be the only one that is experiencing such situation
i am currently reading Jodi Picoult (Nineteen Minutes)
borrowed from Yvonne babe :)
whereby i am on chapter 2 now..
there is too much facts of life for me to jot it down here
so i'll take one particular fact which caught my attention the most
and it goes like this
'isn't it amazing how, when you strip away everything,
people are so much alike.'
People used to always think that we're all different in our own way.
but, however, i still find that no matter how different we are among each other,
we'll always end up very much alike.
It's quite conflicting when everything seems so different in front of our eyes
but in fact, the truth is, everything is similar...
i am always reminded of how similar my situation is,
in which one of my fren's fren is also in the same position as me
hence, i always used to sum up my own justification that
i'll end up being alone and that is the reason why i wish & hope
to succeed well - financially
on the other hand,
i wish my thinking could be less complicated where i could be
as innocent & optimistic like my bestie
so that i don't have to have suspicion or doubts about everything
so that i would have confidence in life
and i could atleast trust certain people in my life
sometimes, i do wish that i can fully set my heart free
from all this lies or get my memories to erase the extremely bad memories
:P

2010-06-09T19:09:00.016+08:00

Greetings ppl
There weren't much happening lately in my daily schedule
I am in the bream of rotting and searching for jobs
but i am very much particular about the jobscope as well
so errr hemm... that explains why i am still jobless right now
XD
i've straighten my hair and it SUX!
gawd..sat in the saloon for friggin 5hours
you'll never know how much i hate for sitting down
my hair ended up pretty FLAT
as per usual, it would take roughly a week to
gain back the natural looks
ish ish ish...

@ Gardens

@ Red Box
found this lovely light when i looked up the ceiling
hehe

Goshhhhhh...my hair
sob sob..
cellophane effect, one of the photo editing trick kekez

Lian Mien & Lian Nie & Yvonne & Me @ Zan Mai

@ To-i-let :P

@ CAR

@ Angel's office
so bored and boredom causes random activity
hence, random-ness below

@ Steamboat

2010-06-01T10:41:00.012+08:00

when u have nothing to do...
^-^

Watched Happy Go Lucky
very Singaporean-ish i would say
hehe
to be honest, i didn't really get some of their ironic jokes
probably i am not familiar with the Singapore context
furthermore, my hokkien isn't good thus i
don't understand what the actors are saying :S
however, the actor and actresses has done a good job
their actions were hilarious :)

Some ramdom-ish cooking
out of boredom
XD

Got these from Daiso
now i can make some cute little rabbit & teddy rice

And this is what i got for my 5th month anniversary
Many loves
.......
made me sooooo speechless

Ohhhhhh...the blingsss :D
I love the gold-ish efforts being put into making this
thanks bie
xoxo

The very cute Japanese Rice Crackers that i
found in Jusco

Watched Shrek Forever After with mom
it was a nice story that lived by the lines of
'Happily Ever After'
and i got this cute little Gingy from McD

loves
xoxo

2010-05-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

So sad~
Ever experience the feeling of anger and hatred from
family members?
i'm having such horrible feelings right now...
at times i know all of us will wonder,
what have we done to deserve all this?
haven't we given our very best
but people just don't see it...
life's abit ridiculous at times..
and as per usual
i don't even know what or who is the cause of this
such ridiculous problem
or should i say,
i should obey and agree to my family member

???????

no matter what
they're the one that is always by our side isn't it

what a pain in the ass right now
:(
guess every kid will go through this kind of moment
mine is considered a small matter perhaps..
positive thinking should come in mind right now, maybe...

tsk tsk~

2010-05-25T14:17:00.012+08:00

- Sight of a beautifully broken-ed windscreen -

Bought VOGUE
i love the front cover
simple and nice :D

*testing camera & editing skillz*
:P

My projects compilation

Joel & Mr.Wilson @ Library

Mr.Wilson's drink

Joel's drink

My drinks
^.^

Loves
xoxo

2010-05-19T09:55:00.023+08:00

Hi Darlinks
here are some updates for last week events
d^.^b

They're so cute :D

accidentally ter-cut my feet :P

**************************************************
Went for a 2D/1N trip to Malacca
this is where we stayed :D

I fink they're discussing what to do

ERm Erm... da lovely couple?!
O.o

Goodness~ the B.O.Y.S

The D.I.N.N.E.R

I love F.L.O.W.E.R.S

hmmm...
Neolithic Era ??

was copying their pose
:P

- The Ship Museum -
10 years in Malacca and this is my
first visit to the ship

The lovely Groupe pic ^^

loves
xoxo

2010-05-13T08:04:00.002+08:00

I woke up ohh soo early
now i am sitting in front of the comp waiting for
my parents to wake up
its kind of boring so i found some random questions
to fill my boredom
XD

1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
yes

2 ) Describe urself in one word.
workaholic :P

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
i'll pick both if i could

4) Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?
no

5 ) Does it feel good to love?
love is magic and it definitely feel good

6 ) What's the best thing to do with the one you love?
traveling, spending time in the car hehe

7) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??
watever, you'll see

8 ) Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
yes there is...

9 ) What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?
no comment, everyone has their own jealousy feelings,
i can't control em'

10 ) What can you say about playboys/playgirls?

no comment as well, as long as i am not one of them

[[ * PART 2 * ]]

1 ) Best place to cry?
toilet

2) Who do you love the most?
my family and boilflen

3 ) Tell us ur dream last night?
erm...i usually forget about my dreams

4) Ever hated someone so bad?
yes!

5 )The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
i forgot

The last person..
-you had a beer with?
parents

-you went to the movies with?
boilflen, sometimes mom and dad

-you talked on the cell phone with?
whoever who call me

-you hugged?
people who matters most in my life

-you yelled at?
toughy, my hamster XD (cuz she keeps biting the cage)

In the last week have you..
~Kissed someone?
yeap

~Danced crazy?
err..no

Think of the last time u were angry, why were u angry?
i forgot, don't remind me of my anger, its a waste of time

If you could do anything OR wish anything, wad would it be?
i wanna go Japan to see Harajuku Streets

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
UK, Big Ben

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
not really

Are you old fashioned?
yes, in fact i am quite an old fashion minded girl

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
its easier to tell them that i love them
the most difficult part is for me to tell them that i don't love them
cuz i'd end up hurting their feelings

What thing would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
my mom, boilflen, career

5 Facts About Me:
obsessed over pink color
no music no life
no work no life
i love my pets
love cars

5 Things that Scares Me:
an angry dad
cockroaches
crowded places
hot and stuffy weather
the sun

5 Songs Playing in My Head Lately:
I wish i could fly- Above & Beyond
Let it go - Dirty South
OMG - Will. I. Am
Ecstasy - ATB
Your love is my drug - Kei$ha

7 "First Time" in My Life:
been to Gold Coast (with parents)
Ministry of Sound (a bday surprise from josh)
Got a BlueLabel
Hurting the ones i love very badly
finally i've been to Redang (with my darling)
Had a massage in Phillip Wain
have someone who loves me for who i am

7 Words I Always Use:
wateverrrrrrrr
huh?!
ohh crap
stuuuuuppppppiiiiiiidddddd
ohhhhhhhhh
wth
hi hi

loves
xoxo